Here I am,
Coming to your table,
To sit and feast
On the word you release.
One look your way
reveals my shame
For avoiding this moment
Fearing what you may say.
So many times
I forget your goodness
and unfailing love.
So many times
I hear your voice
Calling to me to sit and dine,
But I stand at the door, feeling insecure.
How could I come and
Sit at the table of
My LORD?
I look and see, around
The table are those so
Much older than me
And I feel out of place and unworthy.
Why did you choose me?
I have nothing worthy
Enough for the King.
My eyes get wide
When I see you rise
And make your way
Towards me.
My bones tremble.
Like a flower in the wind,
My spirit is twirling and dancing within.
All of me wants to move
And cry out
How much I love you!
Now you are five feet away
And I can barely stay
Standing.
I fall on my knees
In the doorway,
Waiting.
I hear my name
Whispered, like a gentle breeze
Kissing my face,
I am unable to meet His eyes.
How could I?
A gentle touch
Wipes my tears.
His hands clasp my face.
With a gentle tug,
Surrounded with the warmth
Of his love,
I look up and see.
His eyes are compassion.
His arms are mighty.
His smile is pure joy.
His voice is perfect peace.
His legs are strong,
Able to carry the weight of the world.
Never have I seen
One like Him.
His hands, resting on my face,
Finds my hands and
They embrace.
"Arise and Come.
There is a place."
His smile lit up his face.
He led me to the table.
He offered me fresh Bread.
He poured out the New Wine.
I sat and ate with Him.
I heard the door close,
But I didn't look back.
I came in afraid, but
He spoke my name.
Then Everything Changed.
P.S.
So, hear me now, Lord; show me your famous mercy.
Oh, God, be my savior and rescue me!
Then he broke through and transformed all my wailing
into a whirling dance of ecstatic praise!
He has torn the veil and lifted from me
the sad heaviness of mourning.
He wrapped me in the glory garments of gladness!
How could I bee silent with it's time to praise you?
Now my heart sings out loud, bursting with joy--
a bliss in side that keeps me singing,
"I can never thank you enough!"
Psalms 30:10-12
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